Sad

So I have an infection that is setting in on both me and the baby. They are taking her tonight in order to hopefully save my uterus from having lasting damage, which could happen even if we waited until the morning.

I have asked to be knocked out as much as possible, so I will be out of it for awhile.

Pray that we can get through this. Also, we will post sometime when we will be having a graveside for our little girl that will soon be in heaven.

More Bad News

Early this morning (5:00 am!), my water broke completely.

We headed to the hospital. They did tests and things and decided to send me to Carle Clinic in Champaign.

Here, they're going to run some tests and whatnot, and will hold me till either things go bad or the baby's delivered.

We saw the nurse practioner...she said 70% of people go into labor within a week of their water breaking. And that right now is a critical time for the baby's lung development, something the fluid really helps with.

If the baby's born right now, or w/in a week, it probably won't make it. Even just a little later and it might make it but have substantial handicaps (blindness, severe mental retardation, etc).

Or if we went past 30 weeks, the baby might not be born with fully developed lungs. You can imagine how much of a problem that would be.

We're hanging in there, but are pretty sad. Right now, they're running tesst to make sure I don't have any infections.

It's scary and probably bad news, but we're trying to hold out and be positive.

Keep praying!

Perinatalist

Tomorrow I have an appointment with a perinatalist at Carle Clinic. I guess that means he's a specialist in both fetal and maternal medicine. We are very thankful to get in to see him so quickly and are just tryig to take it one day at a time. Tonight I'm thinking, if I can just make it to this appointment...

In the mean time Jonah will be playing at different friends' houses and Jake has been taking care of scheduling that as well as everything else! Its been hard on all of us already and its only been two days. But we are hopeful about our appointment tomorrow, maybe he'll be able to give us an idea of what to expect.

Nightmare

You know how you wake up from a bad dream and realize it was just a dream? And you are SO glad that you don't have to face the consequences of stealing a car or being lost in a dark field alone(mine usually don't get much crazier than that).

Today I woke up and thought for just a second that what happened yesterday was just a bad dream. But soon realized that my nightmare was in fact real. I really am leaking amniotic fluid at only 21 weeks pregnant. This is very scary because if I lose too much they will have to take the baby whose chances of survival are VERY slim at this point.

Please pray for us! The best thing that could happen is for the hole in my placenta to heal its self, which means that I likely could carry her to term. If that doesn't happen then the next best thing would be for enough fluid to be contained (yesterday there was plenty) for her to be able to develop for at least 3 more weeks, 7 more would be much better!

I will try to post regularly on this blog baby updates, but still feel like you can call and e-mail. I'm on complete bedrest and can use the "company".

Avoiding a 4 month long discussion (maybe)

We've been avoiding the "name talk" since we've found out that we were pregnant. Maybe we haven't actually been avoiding it so much as we just haven't really gotten around to having a real discussion about it. As I approached that 20 week mark we decided that maybe should at least talk about it a little.

With Little J, I knew what I wanted to name a boy and and we quickly formed a short list in case it was a girl. Naming our firstborn seemed pretty easy. But since then we realized that we could not agree on another boy name. Maybe I have been avoiding this talk for that very reason.

The talk went the same way it has in the past, Big J rejects every name I suggest and in return comes back with a ridiculous one. His current "favorite" is Luke (first name) Skywalker (middle name). I think that Little J thinks that if we has a little brother his name will truly be Luke Skywalker.

I'm a little relieved that the ultrasound tech is "sure" that this baby is a girl. We LOVE the fact we will soon have one of each although another boy would have been fine. Except that the girl short list seems a lot more appealing than four months of "Luke Skywalker". I think I would have to agree to the first "real" name he suggested.

The question of the day is: if I handed him the birth certificate form could he REALLY sentence our child to Luke Skywalker for the rest of his life?

One Cute Ring Bearer

This weekend we traveled to Arkansas for a wedding. Little J was asked to be a ring bearer, his first time with this important job! He was told that if he did a good job he would win a prize. He did a great job, even tried to help his very young ring bearer partner and earned a very large Power Ranger for his efforts.

I was little concerned that we wouldn't feel up to the wedding since on our trip there he threw up several times. I'm thinking it was just the combination of a banana and some curvy roads because while Jake was cleaning up the mess in the car and our friend was digging out 7-up and meds, he was circling her house with her dog. Then he ate a whole Sonic Wacky Pack...

The Rehearsal:


Doesn't he look good in a tux???


The Bride thinks he should marry the flower girl, they were definitly set up!


But he has his eyes on the bride!


Notice the other ring bearer dragging his pillow.


Bustin a move at the reception.


Family Photo